haze. still there.

i had a very late lunch today. that patient, an auntie. yenna yenni. i was sponging her. cuci je, cirit, cuci saja, cirit balik. i was like, can i just put a buttplug? heh. itu bisikan syaitan di telinga i saja. ade few ekor bisik2.

i fikir, nanti i tua jugak. somebody's gona wipe my buttock too. i didn't realize tercalit sikit some blood on my scrub suit. i was like, 'nasib baek tak pegi canteen with such keaiban'. nanti pakcik guard gatal kat valet counter sengih miang lagi kat i.

"hi Mar, pegi mana tu? cafe ke?"

i pun muncung bibir tunjuk kat signboard "To Staff Cafeteria".

i senyum.

"hi abang dollah. tak lah. pegi Masjid Jamek" i flip my hair. terus jalan laju-laju. gatal urut2 misai. mesti tengah rape i dalam his imagination.

i teringat kes ade orang nampak Abang Dollah si pak guard ni pukul bini kat parking lot B3. i was like, machonye abang dollar with army-haircut badan tough, tapi pukul bini? no no no bad BAD Abang Dollah. i would like to see you in cerebral stroke condition, lepastu siapa yang bela you. its either your wife or nobody baby. so please. respect.

i continue jalan. i know i shouldn't wear heels on wednesday. its pasar malam day too yaw. i left my sneakers in Marissa's car.

its 3 o'clock. there's nothing much left, edible, in the cafe. period.

Kak Ram betembung dengan i. Kak Ram keje attendant. ward bersalin dulu. sekarang tukar chemotherapy. janda anak ramai.

"Markisa! lama akak tak nampak ko. kurusnye kau! dah kawen?"

"hehe belum. boyfren pun takde la Kak Ram"

"alah ko drama! cuba ko catwalk depan emergency tu, ramai je MO teliur"

i malas nak melarat. Kak Ram kaki bawak mulut. i jawab,

"i jalan depan mortuary, mayat hidup balik kak, lari nampak i. Kisa nak cepat ni. food dah habis. nak kena beli kat luar. Kisa jalan dulu ya"

i senyum. lengan baju dah tetas. Marissa wash my baju tak masok dalam net bag. so do my previous lingerie. dah tetas-tetas benang salahkan my cats.

i walk out from the hospital building. pergi nearby kedai melayu kelantan. i jumpa Thanam, my college friend masa belajar dulu. berkilat natural rambut aci ni. jeles. ajak did makan. tak sedap takde gang kan.

oooh. harini abang hot ada. rasanya lagi muda dari i. goatee sejemput yang sexy. tapi takkan nak panggil dik kan. maruah oh maruah.

"Abang, carrot susu satu kurang manis. nasi gorang ayam satu, pedas". Thanam makan nasi lauk. abang klate senyum2. kenapa? muka i ada panau ke? cecepat i keluar cermin. oh clear. rambut je serabai.

Kisa balik ward. sister gemuk still there.

"SN Markisa. please kira all the DDA for stock take this month"

tak payah la jerit. i tau kerja i. i senyum. angguk. "Sister tak balik lagi?"

"Hmmmm" dia jawab. dengan tarik muka bulldog dia. well, fuck you. jangan sampai i, adelah nurse yang cebuk punggung you, sistah. i pakai cuka getah nanti.

ngantuk. saya kerja sampai besok till 5.


Love, MarkisaImran